Hey every one hope you are well!
This might be hideously early to say, but as I am not usually one to be excited for Christmas, I’m going to say it anyway:
I am looking forward to Christmas!
I have set up my little Christmas tree and have completed my Christmas shopping (early for once!)
I have been with my partner for coming on 5 years, and we have never spent Christmas Day together. Mainly because, I don’t see my family as much as I used to, so I would feel disgustingly guilty all day if I were to spend it with my partner and his family. The same goes for him. He spends every boxing day with his family of which the holidays are the only time in the year they all get together. Same goes for me and my family traditions on boxing day.
Although I have managed some years to do both, but that involves travelling from one side of London to the other which is a bit of a pain in the jingle bells.
Anyway, this year we had an overwhelming brainwave. Why not have our own “Christmas Day” together? We looked at eachother as if to say, WHY HAVE WE NEVER THOUGH OF THIS BEFORE?
I love my family, but I always miss my partner on the big day. But this year, we have planned our own! I have bought plates, crackers, napkins, candy canes and more Christmassy things. We will be spending the day watching Christmas movies, drinking Bailey’s and playing Cluedo!
I feel so blessed to say I will be enjoying the festive season with everyone I love and I am so grateful that I am in a position to do so, for the first time.
I usually suffer with depressive episodes during Christmas and other holidays in which ‘happiness’ is almost expected. It makes me feel guilty, as if I’m doing it wrong, which of course sounds mental.
Anyway, I do hope everyone has a blessed and happy holiday season! I feel so grateful.